All Shades of Human
Darkness had bathed this corridor for a
very long time. Hints of light penetrating cracks through the wall were the
only thing allowing a faint view; oddly enough he never knew where the light
really came from. He stood there, rethinking whether he should go through this.
He had made a promise not to come here gain; time truly does change. Nothing
has changed about this place. The corridor seemed unvisited as expected; the
coldness caused a stinging chill throughout his body. The deafening silence was
timely broken by the random water droplets falling on the cold floor, its sound
came from where he was heading; third door to the left. Robert stood there with
an uneasy posture, paralyzed by the dreadful surge of memories he has of this
place. The memories of something he laid hidden in that room over there. He
never planned to once more be a guest to what laid in that chamber, a guest to
what he locked up here years ago. "It" was surely still there, he
would have known if ithad broken out. He was always reluctant to call him by
his real name, or even refer to him as an actual person."No,
something has changed about this place" He thought while inhaling the
repugnant stench coming from the room. He coughed heavily as he regretted inhaling
so acceptingly, the stench seemed so unfamiliar. He never smelled it here
before, yet it has been years since he visited the hollow corridor. Now, it was
time for him to take the first step towards the room. Each step was an echo through
the deaf corridors, accumulating regret along the way.
Meanwhile, a few
steps and door away, a silhouette laid centered in the room. "It" was
there. Its feet were strapped to the front legs of the wooden chair, and his
arms to the armrests. His face was looking down, yet his gaze seemed oblivious
of his surrondings. Opposite to what Robert called him, he appeared to be human.
The man's cloth hinted on the longevity of his stay in this captivity.A long
enough time for him to be the source of the stench Robert smelled earlier. His clothes were ragged, accompanied by
dreadful stains of filth. The sleeves were torn. The man wore no shoes; the skin of his
unwashed feet caressed the floor's cold stones. Something was; nevertheless,
peculiar about the man, for regardless of the uncanny state he was in, and the
time through which he suffered in it, his face had shown no remorse nor appall.
Nothing has shown but a bloodless stare. A stare that is knowing of what's to
come, or who is to come.
The man heard
several steps followed by their hallowing echoes and began humming a desolate
tune, nodding his head from hum to hum "Drop..Drop…Drop.. Step.Step..Drop.
What a melody" He said while finally breaking the silence. For a long time
he had waited for a change of tune. The water drops sipping through the roof
and into the floor cracks have become painfully repetitive.
"Step..Step..ahh, Beautiful" He lavished on the extravagant orchestra
around him. He didn't just enjoy the eerie melody, but he knew what it
signaled; "He is coming" he thought.
Robert's eyes lay
fixed upon the corridor as his feet trembled with pauses between each footstep.
The ceramic floors stretched away from him with every step he took. His nerves
pulsated with an escalating beat, forming yet another instrument to the tied
entity in the room. The smell, it's getting stronger. He raised his right hand
to block out the stench. His mind shuffled, attempting to pin down the smell.
The smell reminded him of that of a carcass he found in a forest during a
school road trip. He was filled with a chilling anticipation to what could have
arisen the smell of rotten flesh; it is coming from the same direction he is
going. His hand did a fair job in blocking the smell, yet the carrying air was
soaked with the dreadful stench. Robert stopped a few steps from the first
chamber. "What am I doing?" he thought. He rest his left hand on his
knee, as he looked down from tedium; the stress of meeting the grinning man was
wearying him down. And there it was, like a hammer blow to his head, he
remembered his face, that grin that embodies all the terror he holds deep in
this chamber. "that damned face.. I
can't do this" He thought as he planned to turn and head back to where he
came from.
"As always
Robert, no fun at all" That voice, soaked with the utmost resilience of
calmness, a symptom of a sick mind.The sound's apparent sympathy was opposite
to its intention. Robert's eyelids were stretched wide open, he stayed in the
half-bent posture; he couldn't get himself to stand. Drops of sweat slid across
his forehead, and unto the floor.
"Here is
something that would keep you going. Look to your right" The convincing
voice rang in his ears. What appeared to be mere seconds, was an eternity
filled with internal panicking and unanswered calls from the man in the third
chamber. "Look to your right Robert". Robert struggled not to look,
yet the curious temptation was too great to ignore. He stood upright, looking
reluctantly to his right. "That wasn't there." He thought. A white
light slid from under the wooden door. He could have sworn that this door
wasn't there. He could have ignored it and continued to the grinning man, or he
could have easily came back from where come from. He would go back to his
normal life, and attempt to forget whatever he saw and felt today. The more he
stayed, the harder it would be to relinquish those morbid thoughts.
The grinning man
started repeating his words; his sinister voice was an omen of what's behind
the door. The last whisper was the definite answer for Robert to decide.
"I have to do it" He realized. He is not going to stop until I do. He
started walking to the room. Images of shadows danced feverishly on the lighted
reflection coming from beneath the door. He pushed the door, it seemed very
fragile and the push was stronger than needed. The room was empty, and no
source of light seemed to come from anywhere. How can the room be dark, he
thought. Robert couldn't get to see anything. Several squints could only show
him a figure standing beneath the chamber's opposite wall.
"Who is
there?" He heard a desperate voice. The voice was of a young boy. He
couldn't really see him, nor could the boy see Robert. "Please.." The
voice said, the trembling tone echoed through the room. "Help me.."
his weak voice barely vibrated to mumble the words. The manner was of utter
helplessness. a young creature with only his barely audiblevoice as a weapon of
survival. Robert's eyes gradually adjusted to the darkness, he could glimpse a
faint image of the room. The ragged cloth of the child looked tortured by the
whims of time. His body was pressed to the wall, his hands frightfully
clutching through cracks in the stone. Robert squinted his tired eyes, further
noticing a broken window. He tried to see what's out there from where he is
standing, but there was nothing. Not nothing as a landscape omitted by
darkness, but absolutely nothing existed outside the damp walls and broken
glassy pattern on the window. Robert tried approaching the boy, vigilant to
whatever might occur. Out here anything can happen. This could be a mere bluff
fabricated by the grinning man.
"Hey kid,
what are you doing here?" Robert said
"I have
always been here" The child said, taking breath after a hefty cough that
drenched the opposite wall in blood. "You just never noticed me. I begged,
shouted, and pleaded for help. I err to remember the span of time through which
my body broke under his wretched self. Unlike you, I couldn't wallow in the
commodities of life, for he kept me here, the grinning man."
"Who are
you" Robert said.
The child looked
back, weakening his clutch on the wall. His tedious eyes shot a direct stare at
Robert's face. Robert couldn't see his face, only those pair of eyes. Those
bloody hazel eyes islanded by whiteness he never witnessed before. The child
was paralyzed for a few seconds before he broke into a horrendous scream. The
scream was an enthralling climax to the grinning man's eerie symphony, echoing
deep through the corridors. It halted, the scream was the last weapon the boy
had; the last cry of a wounded animal expecting his death. The boy's body was
hurled on the cold floor. The fall was followed by another cough that bathed
the floor with blood.
"It's you,
the grinning man.." The boy said with the same bloodcurdling look he had
before. Robert stood paralyzed, the boy's words, and that scream. The kind of
mind that would agonize a child was beyond Robert's comprehension. What
monstrous figure would do such a thing? He
felt the stupidity of the question as soon as he answered it. It is the grinning
man. The thought of the grotesqueness of his mind froze Robert's blood in its
narrow streams. Robert tried approaching the boy. Midway through his walk, he
saw the child's hands reach for a shard of glass. Robert couldn't see his face
still, but his eyes glared like a lantern amidst the tyrannical darkness. The
same glare protruded from the veil of the dark room; an oblique blood drained
look of shock and animalistic fear.
"The boy is
learning" Robert heard the same fiendish voice come from the third chamber.
"Survive,
boy. Kill the grinning man" The voice said again.
Robert tried to
approach him again, for he realized he is the only one who can save that boy
now. For some reason, he couldn't get himself to utter some friendly words to
assure the injured child. His body's manner was the only method of
communicating his intention; he approached as cautiously as possible. Step by
step he tried approaching the boy, negating all hellish ideas of what is
happening today. Again his nose caught the smell of the decaying meat he smelt
earlier; he had almost forgotten about it. The dark shroud started to fade
gradually as his eyes adapted even more, he could spot something bracing the
boys hand that was holding the glass shard. The watch glittered in the night.
It had brought back a memory that didn't belong in this nightmare of a place.
It looked like a watch his father gave him twenty one years earlier; a Casio
digital watch. He had promised to get him one on his thirteenth birthday, a
fine trophy to his watch collection. He had always loved watches; the idea of a
simple mechanism that instructs us on the passage of our lives was an idea of
pure ingenuity to him. Robert even wanted to manufacture a line of watches for
his own.
"It's
strange" He thought though. "The watch did look identical to his
own" He blocked those thoughts out of his mind. "This is no place for
this".
The whiteness
surrounding his pupils had given away to the watery flow of fear. Tears started
dripping from the glaring lanterns. The boy favored death over falling again
into the hands of the grinning man. "Please..no" He said one last
time, before his hands bolted to his fragile skin around his chest. Robert ran
to the boy with a violent scream, alas his silence was broken, yet too late indeed.
He reached for the kid's hands as he took the shard out of his chest, sprouting
blood all over Robert's face and torso.
Robert's gaze
slowly met the boy's face. His eyes met something that forced his body to jolt
backwards in terror. His hands covered his mouth as he was on the verge of
breaking in tears. And so he did, as tears dropped along his cheeks, sliding on
his hands that blocked his expected screams. He had wished earlier that once he
left this place, he'd forget everything about italong all its memories. Now
though, nothing, not even the passing of the clock would make him forget what
he just saw. There he was leaning back to the corner of the room. His vision
was blurred by his pain-soaked tears; he could see the boy's face now, his own
face from when he was thirteen. That was him...His young body was gushing blood
all over his ragged cloth. The narrow gaps between the ceramic tiles were
filled with what once thrived through the young body. An urging feeling boiled
through Robert's mind as the last breath came out of the tired body laid down
on the floor. The beating furnace warmed his once shivering body. Dismay turned
to aim, fear to rage. For the first time since he arrived at this place, he had
a clear view; he knew what he has to do now.
Robert stood up;
he looked at the child for one last time as he exited the chamber's door. The
beat of the footsteps went faster, and faster. The grinning man could hear the
rhythm, an ecstasy to his devilish perception. Robert ran faster, with anger as
his burning fuel. He came here to seek help, help from a necessary evil. An
evil that he knew was better at handling what is out there, what is outside the
walls of those corridors. Now though, it all changed. How could he seek the
help of a whimsical mind of a smiling psychopath? That smile, that grin.. The
grinning man he calls himself, that grin that stands for everything inhumane
about that human parasite; the self-proclaimed survivor who fests on children.
A cannibal of a different measure he was, a cannibal that devours sanity, be
that of his own or others. Robert realized that this was his fault; keeping
that mind alive in the place he admires most, captivity. Robert's gallop met
its end along the tightly sealed door of chamber three. His once accelerating
will fell weary after his hand began heading for the knob. The door's knob
seemed rusted as his skin laid hands on it. Robert opened the door slowly as a
shouting creak arouse from the scratching wood. Here he was, tied up on the
decaying wood chair in the center of the room.
Time seemed to
stop as Robert gazed upon him. The stench was strongest at where Robert was
standing; it was coming from the center of the room. The man sitting centered
in the room raised his arm, waving to his guest that just arrived. The vulgar
sight of the arm made Robert instantly uneasy; the man had bitten off his own
hand to free himself from the bonding. Robert couldn't see his face still,
secretly wishing that he wouldn't. The grinning man's face looked downward, and
all Robert could see was his hair-covered scalp. The arm kept waving slowly,
splattering blood around.
"I think I
cut myself" He said, while slowly raising his gaze.
Robert realized
that this is the moment he would see it; the grin that marked a dreary period
in his life. His eyes were very large. The left eye was bloody with a scratched
cornea, protruding out with a wide-open gaze. Smudges of blood coated his
mouth, the blood of nothing but his own hand that he chewed off.The room was
utterly dark, yet his blood glowed fiery red. It was happening, all the jaw
muscles that his resilient eroded body hadmoved accordingly to the impulses of
his capricious mind; The finale of the damned concerto of his ends with the
last crescendo; the abdominal visage that is the grin.
"Hello
Robert" He said gazing through his eyes, unwavering into the bottom of his
soul. Robert stared back at the image of no one but himself, he was the
grinning man, or to put it correctly, the grinning man was him. Summoning up
the remaining vitality he had left, Robert fixed his posture as if to
intimidate his tied up image; the mask he created a long time ago. The mask was
a tool for him to survive. He saw it all around him, there was no place for the
weak, there was no place for the sane. This mask was the only thing that kept
him alive out there,out in the real world. It was of no conscious choice for
him to create that mask; the most hideous of his creations, yet the
craftsmanship of the years have caused him to unwillingly perfect this
abomination. Surprisingly, he fitted perfectly in the real world. Devoid of
emotions, getting the job done, mischievously gaining admirers; that was
ultimately what the mask was made for, survive. Everything; however, comes with
consequences. Robert had kept on the mask for some time, attempting to ignore
the symptoms of keeping it on for such long time, his close relationships
started to fade away, money and power becoming his only concern, and the
unregretful attitude he kept all the time. Robert handled the symptoms,
thinking they were suitable sacrifice for his new life. He thought so until one
day coming back late from work, a man tried to rob him, a poor old sob with an
untrimmed beard and ragged clothes holding nothing but a blunt rusty knife. He
didn't seem much of a threat, Robert could have easily ran off, or even gave
the guy a couple of dollar, but "He" had something else in mind. A
few punches knocked out the old fool, until he tediously stood up running for
it. The old man dropped his knife on the way. Robert followed him relentlessly,
grabbing the knife. The old man's fragile and time-worn body stood no chance at
outrunning Robert's athletic stamina. Robert tried to stop the awful run,
attempting to take control over his body, yet it was too late. The mask had
taken over completely. What Robert could do was nothing but stop and stare at
what his own hands were doing. The old man pegged for his life under the
terrible thrashing caused by Robert's unwilling hands, the blunt knife sank
deep repeatedly into the old body, each followed by a dreadful scream. Robert
felt the bloodless resolve of the mask. Each stab was a rush of ecstasy that
cooled off his burning vanity. The old man's last breath was extracted much
earlier than the crazed man's rage had ameliorated. The knife didn't halt to
the sight of the dead body, yet kept going further and further. Here he was
kneeling down on the dead corpse, inhaling tiredly. Robert's fixed eyes looked
at the horrid sight; the deformed body was no more to be recognized. The horror
he had seen in this incident was too much for him to handle, he kept thinking
if next time it was his wife, maybe child, a friend, or even another stranger.
He wasn't able to control him at the time, and he is not going to be able to
any other time. Robert knew what he had to do. He sought to lock up his most
horrific creation in those corridors. The corridors were placed deep inside his
mind. He had visited him a few times, even thought about freeing him back.
Though each time he had visited him, the man only spoke a few words. The words
seemed meaningless, yet there was something peculiar about him, the man always
hosted Robert with a wide open grin. From then on, the name stood imprinted in
Robert's mind, the grinning man.
Standing here
again in that cold cell, he regretted locking him instead of ending his
dreadful existence. He had come here seeking his help, yet this trip of seeking
aim is now a crusade against the demon that lurks through his mind. "You
always sickened me with that grin of yours. To think that I needed you, to
think that I even thought about freeing you" Robert uttered those words
with rage filling up through his mind, the grinning man looked at him with his
crimson eyes, admiring the change he had created. Before today, Robert would
have never had the guts to speak such words, nor plan someone's demise. His
eyes too, the sudden attentiveness of eyes filled with rage with an intention
to kill was all too flattering for the grinning man. "Grin? I am just glad
you are here Robert, is that your way of repaying my kindness?"
"Shut up,
enough of your games, it is time for you to go" Robert's hand availed from
behind his back showing a shard of glass. "What did you to that
child?" The words came out boiled with rage. A sarcastic laugh burst out
from the grinning man "You silly sod, how can I do anything to that boy,
while I am tied here by none other but yourself. And I thought you were smart
Robert" The grinning man's words were followed by a heavy fist that
crackled his jaw bones. Robert hailed on him with a series of relentless beating
with every punch. Robert punched and punched, exclaiming "Why?" with
every landing of his fist. The grinning man started giggling, unable to talk
because of his jaw's disposition. Robert laid his final punch as he stood there
with bloody knuckles. The beaten up man sat there with a face gushing blood, no
longer grinning. "That last one really did fix my jaw Robert" The man
had found tremendous trouble talking, pausing midway through each word.
"Now, to answer your question. You should know better than me…. it was you
who created me after all. You know what I never liked about you Robert, you
always blamed me, yet come to think of it, I wouldn't have done what I have
done, if you hadn't made me. Relentless, mischievous, bloodless. That is what
your life truly desired, what your mind truly wished. Well…. Here I am"
Robert fell to
his knees in front of the blood dripping wooden chair, horrified at what he
just heard. The tied up man was right. It was him who created this. It was him
who killed the man at the alley, it was him who killed the young boy,
indirectly it might seem, but it was all an all him. He looked up to see him
again, looking at him while enjoying the suffering he seemed to be going
through. His jaw was broken, along with several teeth. Smudges of blood covered
the floor from where he spat. The grinning man noticed the dismay Robert was
going through. He despised this nature of Robert. The glaring eyes filled with
purpose and intent to do it were gone. "No Robert" The grinning man
screamed as he hauled his bitten freed hand with all the might he had towards
Robert's face, knocking him down.
Robert woke up;
his screams filled the room as he looked down to see himself tied up to the
same wooden chair, "What did you do to…" He stopped midway through
the sentence as he looked to the floor to where the grinning man was laying; he
couldn't stand as one of his feet was chopped off. "You see I could only
slide one out, yet I had to cut off the other" The grinning man said. He
had lost a lot of blood, and Robert's punches had gotten the last bit of power
in him. "You see Robert, that is
the difference between me and you. I did what I could do to survive. That is
what people do out there don't they? survive" The grinning man said as he
laid his face to the blood smudged floor of the chamber; his eyes fixated on
Robert as the life faded away from his blood smeared body.
He couldn't
remember how much time did the lifeless face of the grinning man stood there
staring at him, before finally summoning up the courage to do it. It probably
took months, yet they felt like eternity. He finally walked out of there,
leaving behind all the trouble, and the hell that he went
through. His left hand was bitten off, leaving a trail of blood through the
corridor. He looked back to glance it for one last time, the multitude of doors
that possessed all of his creations; he won't be needing them anymore. The
place didn't seem to him as eerie nor mischievous as it did before, yet really
did feel like home. He had to get back to his life though. He had a lot to do.
He has changed a lot since he had gotten here. He has become stronger, more
resilient, capable of survival, yet one thing that really seemed different is
that horrid grin he had on.
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